I'm so sorry. That's... I can't even imagine. I mean, I guess it is too good an opportunity, but... I'm so sorry. *hug* I wish you could be down here right now, I know you're miserable and I can't do anything for you... I love you lots. I'll try to call you as soon as my phone stops screwing up. I'm in a horrible reception area, so I can't even tell if I miss calls half the time. If you can't get through and you need to talk, e-mail me and I'll call you as soon as possible.