*watches herself bitch in the wrong direction*

hmm... I lost my temper a bit yesterday. The thing was, I knew who was posting anonymously on the two entries that had no hint of who it was.

I misplaced the target of my anger somewhat.

Anonymous posters don't really bother me. Sure I'm curious, but who isn't?

What got on my nerves yesterday was that the person doing that was doing so for no reason other than to spite me.

[bitchy anger release]
     Last time I saw him, whether intentional or not, the way he acted made me feel as though he viewed me as the cute little kitten. Little oh so adorable thing with some claws, but nothing that could really do damage. Something inferior. Looking down on people, you could say, is one of my pet peeves.
     Yet he wants to be my friend. But he often makes me feel like he's looking down on me. I'm short yes, and maybe I've never seriously damaged him, but I don't do that to friends. He has no idea how much he angered me that evening, me and my friend who was visiting. She could have and would have seriously hurt you if she hadn't thought I would be angry later.
     So yeah. I'm kinda mad at you right now. You seriously upset me then. And now you hint enough to make it obvious I know you without indicating whom it is, and proceed to comment on some personal thoughts. And claim I'm just like you.
     Just to let you know, that annoys me as well. No one is just like anyone else. When I feel like I understand someone, I say as much, but the sentence is usually followed by "but I'm not in the exact same situation as you, so I can't be sure". Or something to that effect. You have no idea just what happened in my past that made me how I am today. There were a specific couple of events that made a lot of why I am the way I am. It is a very personal thing, and it was/is a very hard thing to have as a part of me. And it belittles what happened to say you're just like me. I honestly don't believe you can know what I've been through, what I go through, day to day. Do not ever claim I'm just like you.
     I do everything in my power to prevent people from ever having to go through what I've been through to become who I am. That is the sort of thing I intend to die before I let it happen to any of my friends. Never say you're just like me.
[/bitchy anger release]


*sigh* Anyways. Sorry to anyone I pissed off, upset, or just generally offended yesterday. I've been frustrated at my friend for a while now.

Food For Thought

If the world was full of nothing but geniuses, how long would religion last? If it continued to exist, what religion would survive? Why?

Any opinions out there?

[My Thoughts]

Food For Thought

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If the world was full of nothing but geniuses, how long would religion last? If it continued to exist, what religion would survive? Why?

Okay. I'm the first to admit... I don't know much about all the various religions. There's so many it's hard to know about them all. I am trying to learn though. If for no other reason than the fact that my current beliefs have yet to find a match. I'm happy there though.

I guess I ought to define what a genius is, but for my purposes, I'm going to say a genius is someone with a high IQ who prefers to look at something from a purely logical point of view. I know that's not always true, but, hey this is for the sake of the thought process I intended.

As far as the theoretical world of geniuses. I give religion in general a generation, maybe two or three, before it goes *POOF* ands disappears. I think that first generation will still go through the motions and rituals, spout the ideas out of tradition more so than anything else. As they present it to their children, they'll sit down and hash out the reasoning where the logical little genius children for the most part will not accept it. I give it a possible second and third generation to weed out the last of the people doing it out of tradition.

I'm not really anti religion, but the thing is, a lot of the beliefs, when questioned from a purely logical perspective, demand a bit more blind trust than someone who thinks in a purely logical manner would like.

Today...

I went to see Atlantis with Randi this afternoon. It was great! I love it! We noted some interesting connections about the use of a star and that a few theories say the Atlantians were the "Star People" mentioned in other cultures. Aliens, who brought all kinds of technology to this world. Also, the use of spirals and circles was so predominant in the city. Have you noticed how every culture builds a lot of things around circles or circular cycles? Almost every religious symbol involves a circle: Celtic knots, the pentagram, circle of life, the list goes on... I had really already thought of the entire circles and cycles thing years ago, but it was great seeing it hit Randi for the first time. Was I that happy when I made the connection? I dunno. Hmmm... Connections are fun...

On the drive back we enjoyed the thunderstorm moving in and talked about the puzzles life presents. Randi commented that you're always getting little pieces to the the big puzzle, and by the time you can put it all together, it's too late. She continued to say that it was so great that everything was coming together so ewell the last couple of days. I had to agree with her a lot of stuff seems to be coming together recently. Don't you think so? Jenni, Dusty? I added, "Makes you wonder if it's really too late and we just don't know it yet."

Anyhow, I continued on to dojo after that. I was 30 minutes late. ^^;; We worked on the basic nine and 1st dragon as well as panther claw. ^_^ Elm says i'm getting good. *happiness* When we were going into a katta set after working on panther, Elm decided to do a random test by moving an arm towards me in a crane attack. I caught it with a panther claw block and brought my other hand in a punch at his chest/face area without really thinking about it. He fell back against "Mr. Bag" hard enough to slam it into the wall. I turned and started katta without really realizing what I had done. Strange for me who would usually spend five minutes apologizing for something like that. The phone rang, and Elm went to get it.

As I did katta, it felt as though I had broken my pinky on the punching hand, it felt like a splinter of bone was on the outside of the pinky and had been pushed up one knuckle length. Very painful. I went over to the green mat, panicked saying something was wrong with my hand even as Elm was telling me it was Randi on the phone for me. I think I scared Elm. Hell, I was scared, and trying to determine for sure whether or not it was broken. Elm told Randi he'd call her back and got me to describe the pain and told me it wasn't broken, it was a reaction to the attack on him a moment earlier. Apparently one of my nerves, one connected to the heart chakra, was freaking out because I had just launched a chi blast at Elm, and it had come out through my pinky. It's happened to him before. The pain went away with his prescribed reaction, so my thought now is, "I gotta learn to control that!" Heh, I'm excited at the prospect.

But it kind of explains my reaction and thoughts, or lack there of. I'm used to random attacks astrally... Doing a quick energy blast to get rid of the attacker and continuing without much thought or reaction to what I've done is a conditioned reaction. I guess it hurts to do that on fellow humans without being properly prepared. Not to mention I had just charged a ton of energy from the thunderstorm outside. So it was a lot to be releasing all of a sudden, since I wasn't being terribly careful.

Oh. And no, no Shadow Walker today. Since the local wind spirit has been a good friend for so long, and my fav thing to do has been creating storms, 'Walkers tend to avoid me during storms around here.