No, you're right. I'm not a supreme being. It's not that I really expect myself to not care, it's more of a situation where I try not to show it. If people start caring about me, I worry that they'll get hurt in the end because of it. I don't really want to not care about people; I know I can't do that. But, the fewer people who would be a deeply hurt if I were to dissapear, the fewer people who care enough about me to be a target for my enemies... the better.

I'm used to pain, and handling it on my own. I simply can't get used to the idea of causing or not being able to prevent it.

No they shouldn't be thrown away because of what might happen. I do have an ally or two. But I try to keep it at a minimum, why put an army at risk when only one or two must fight?