Leaving College Entry 4 -- Final Meetings...

[elfgrove]

"Funny how laughter looks like crying without...the sound...Strange how raindrops taste like tears without...the pain" - Kelly Thomas

It's really sad, now that I think about it. My last club meetings of the year are today. Damn...

Pantheon at 7pm as well as Anime Club at 7pm. My normal solution is go to the hour long meeting of Pantheon, then go to the Anime Club meeting until whenever. But, I want to go to the out to eat thing with the Pantheon kids after the meeting tonight.

I saw Brett, who was at May Day (Queen Of Winter), at the induction into some idiotic honor frat. We had both gotten in. He was the only one there that I knew, and he was kind enough to come talk to me. I'm not used to people doing stuff like that. It was nice of him. It also reminded me how much I've really come to care about the Pantheon members. I want to get to know them better, but i'm too afraid of being pushed away or getting hurt, or hurting them to do anything about it. Anyways, that's why I want to go this evening to the dinner thing.

But then again, there's Anime Club. It's not the last time i'll see them this semester because we're planning to have dinner out saturday evening, all of us except Matt. That's why I was planning to schedule a little go grab ice-cream together thing on dead day, thursday. But there's a schedule conflict, Matt is only free up until 3pm and Chris is only free after 6pm. Since Matt can't make Saturday, I really want to schedule it where he can make it. But that's just it, it isn't scheduled yet, and Matt will have left before I could get back to Anime Club if I do the dinner thing with Pantheon.

Looks like i'm going to forfiet a chance to get better aquainted with Pantheon kids in lew of scheduling later stuff with Anime Club kids.
I hate this... I don't want to skip out on either group. Damn my luck...

I'm really going to miss all of them this summer, although the Anime Club is supposed to come visit me at home at some point.