Wow...

[elfgrove]

"It is the curse of the weak to destroy what they don't comprehend because the unknown frightens them. Rather like a child that is afraid of monsters under the bed but is afraid to light a candle and explore if there is anything really there at all. Instead they lay there all night, shivering in dread, for no other reason but stupidity and cowardice. They don't face their fears because they don't want to understand the nature behind them. They don't want to see their own failings. They have to demolish everything that makes them nervous or frightened because it makes them feel big and powerful when in reality, they are nothing more than ants." - Janus, "The Story of Magus Ch. 18" by ZealPropht

I'm a little surprised at the e-mail I got this evening. I sent an e-mail to check up on a friend, or at least, I like to think of him as a friend, at college. In the reply, I found out he knew about and read my LJ. I was surprised. And a bit embarassed I think. More surprising to me is going to be if once he sees some of the friends locked posts in conjunction with a couple of the earlier unlocked ones he still speaks to me. I'm shocked he hasn't written me off as crazy and not worth talking to already. We'll see what happens. It's actually a pleasant surprise.

Comments

crazy? you are not crazy.

[(Anonymous)]

I have been reading your journal for months and you seem to be a bit lonely but not crazy. You have a refreshingly unique point of view.

Re: crazy? you are not crazy.

[elfgrove.livejournal.com]

Thanks.

Crazy?

[dreamspiral.livejournal.com]

Are you kidding? I've done plenty of magic(k) in my time, and I know that you are definitely not crazy. Of course, I was sort of scared away from magic in general after some really bad juju came my way... heh, messing around with things I shouldn't have been...

Anyway, I probably should have told you that I knew about your LJ... sorry about that. I was actually worried about you thinking that I was crazy. For some reason, when I tell most people my personal thoughts, they tend to get that impression... I still don't know why. I guess I didn't know that you would be worried about the same.

Re: Crazy?

[elfgrove.livejournal.com]

Heh. I got scared of magic(k) too after my "experimenting" with it got me into some bad stuff. I had to learn fast just to fix things though; I couldn't abandon it. Now i'm trying to make up for it I suppose, by trying to understand what happened, even as that experience is coming back to haunt me now. ^_^ Ah well. As you said "messing around with things I shouldn't have been".

Don't stress over not telling me you knew about my LJ, It doesn't bother me. So don't be sorry. I guess we both worried about the same thing, huh? I certainly don't think you're crazy. Well, i'll talk to you later. ^_^

*^_^*

[(Anonymous)]

I don't consider being crazy a bad thing. I find your live journal reports to be more like action-packed battle reports, which are fun to read. Also I'm wondering how are you got yourself to be all psychic and stuff??? -Iniach

Re: *^_^*

[elfgrove.livejournal.com]

I guess I always have been this way Inioch. Some of the stuff I went threough that caused me to learn to focus and earn a little control, is not something I advise or wish to talk about. ^_^

[(Anonymous)]

Well... You ARE a bit crazy, but IMHO anyone who isn't at least a LITTLE crazy is too boring to bother with! ;) Actually, judging from your LJ entries and your homepage you are so like me in basic attitude and outlook on life that it's a bit spooky. There's nothing wrong with how you are, it just makes it difficult for others to understand you effectively. My only suggestion is that you maybe try and see what it's like to give occasional brief views of your thoughts to some of the people whom you think could make good friends if you let them in. It can have quite wonderful and sometimes surprising results. (yes I did try this recently and have probably gained the closest friend that I've ever had for it)


Someone whom you've met more than once =P

Hrmm??

[elfgrove.livejournal.com]

Just out of curiousity, who is this?

I don't really let people in on suggesstion or because it might be healthy. I can't. As strange as it is, and as hard as it is at times, I like being this way. I'm accustomed to how I am. I let people in when I get the feeling that I should, that i'm ready to. I have a couple of people I let in. So don't worry about that.

Re: Hrmm??

[(Anonymous)]

Well, that didn't come out quite as I intended. I was in ultra-hyper-happy mode from some recent events and just kinda went off somewhere with my thought stream. ;) I'm well aware of what you mean by not being able to let others in, although I don't personally like being that way... I've managed to get myself to a state that I do like now though. I'm not capable of truly opening to anyone but my 2 closest friends, that I can deal with just fine.

I mostly just commented on this because of how much you APPEAR to not like pushing people away. I could relate to that, sorry if I misinterpreted what you meant!

- Remaining anonymous if for no more reason than to make you wonder =)

Re: Hrmm??

[elfgrove.livejournal.com]

Chris! You jerk! Don't post anonymously like this! It seriously pisses me off.