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Happy... So Very Happy....
Apr. 1st, 2001 04:21 pmHah.
Yeah right...
I'm currently in a mode of thinking where telling the gods to go screw themselves sounds like one of my better options.
I know I shouldn't do that though.
But gods... I don't know right now... I'm hurt and sad and angry right now. And I don't know what to do with these feelings...
I just lost a second family member in a single month. She was found dead in her home friday morning <03-29-2001>. She had been dead for at least 10 days. We have no idea what killed her. The body was in such bad shape we have no option for burial except cremation.
The person my mom had to hear this from was my back-stabbing bastard of an aunt, who was more concerned by the fact that my cousin didn't have a will than that she was dead. Bitch. Why not you? If someone had to die, why not you?
My cousin was only 12 years older than my mom, and her birthday would've been this June.
She was my favorite cousin too. Only other unicorn freak, believer in magic, and conspiracy theorist in the family on mom's side. She was the only one I could relate to on certain things in that family.
I didn't find out until saturday morning. Mom didn't want to ruin my day out with my friends. She cried as she told me, so I didn't. I haven't. I can't. Someone has to be strong. I won't put that on my mother's shoulders. She's lost too much recently.
Yeah right...
I'm currently in a mode of thinking where telling the gods to go screw themselves sounds like one of my better options.
I know I shouldn't do that though.
But gods... I don't know right now... I'm hurt and sad and angry right now. And I don't know what to do with these feelings...
I just lost a second family member in a single month. She was found dead in her home friday morning <03-29-2001>. She had been dead for at least 10 days. We have no idea what killed her. The body was in such bad shape we have no option for burial except cremation.
The person my mom had to hear this from was my back-stabbing bastard of an aunt, who was more concerned by the fact that my cousin didn't have a will than that she was dead. Bitch. Why not you? If someone had to die, why not you?
My cousin was only 12 years older than my mom, and her birthday would've been this June.
She was my favorite cousin too. Only other unicorn freak, believer in magic, and conspiracy theorist
I didn't find out until saturday morning. Mom didn't want to ruin my day out with my friends. She cried as she told me, so I didn't. I haven't. I can't. Someone has to be strong. I won't put that on my mother's shoulders. She's lost too much recently.
