elfgrove

Things have been odd lately. I think being this sick does weird shit to my head. I know it plays havoc with my senses (6th and above included). i.e. I jerked to waking despite almost hitting sleep time a couple of nights ago because I sensed a presence in my apt. It was a bug... On the other side of the room, and it set off all my sensory alarms. I can't get to sleep 'til 1am or so, but wake up at 6 or 7, every night. I'm not hungry except at lunch, and I can't quite finish a chick-fil-a 8-piece chicken nugget meal. That is how screwed up my system is right now.

I see my friends hurting.... I want to protect them.
I see my friends who are happy... I want to rejoice for them.
- *lots of hugs to you.*
Don't give up on love coming to you if any part of you still wants to believe in it. There are times when that kind of belief is a godsend. Embrace it. I wish I could make everything nicer and easier on you.
- I'm so sorry your parents are edgy. Hang on. It'll get better.
Oh. And please send Angie my congratulations. I've not sen her since graduation, and I'm glad to hear she's happy.
- I'm glad your Halloween turned out decent after all. And maybe LJ will let you coment again soon. Good to see you're still alive out there. *hugs*
- Surprisingly, most of that info wasn't anything new. I'm glad you and Mike are cool. Sorry about the Noone's stuff. Keep pressuring everyone to pay Elm-san. I should be back next friday. *crosses fingers*
- And you... You and I could argue in circles and never accomplish an end on this. You know what I'm talking about, and you know what i'd say. You're not worthless, you matter, and I know the entire protect by distance bit, we both do it too much. Take care of yourself. *hugs*
- You silly fae. See ya in a week or so.
- I Miss You!!! *hugs*
- Please take care of yourself.
- Smile You. ^_^ *hugs*

I've been getting the strangest urge over the past few months to refer to some of my friends by these odd terms. It's something I do sometimes. Don't be alarmed or weirded out (too much) when I let them slip. It's an affection thing I do occasionally... Defines relations sometimes. I feel kinda stupid using them, but sometimes I can't help it. Terms as they are most likely to be used:

"dear one" - somehow, somewhere along the line since I met you, you've just gained this nich in my heart, and become someone i'm not likely to forget.
poor Dracu has had to deal with me calling him that. i've had to catch myself several times with Dusty.
"heart's ease" - It just makes me happy to see them, to hear from them. Conact with them somehow makes me feel content in this strange way that I can't explain.
haven't subjected anyone to it yet, but Aaron, Jenni, and Rob are at risk to hearing that pop out one of these days.
"dear heart" - similar in meaning to dear one, barely distinguishable, yet, there is something somewhere in me that separates it.
Poor Randi and Laura, i've almost slipped several times.
"fae one" - one who reminds me of a fairy. bright, michevious, often silly.
Very much Laura.
"love" - just that. one who i love on this level that I can't understand.
I've only ever been inclined to say this to two people. One i've never had the chance to. Jenni knows who, on both.