ElfGrove

I once had the same view. I never showed my weaknesses, because inside I had to be so strong. To keep those I cared from falling. I once never showed that I really cared. But when left alone and no-one to be strong for, the stone itself can crumble. I feared getting close to anyone because I thought myself that being close to anyone caused them to hurt or to die because that is all that ever happened to anyone close to me. I know of at least 13 people I've lost to that evil curse of death. A sick painful cycle since when I was 7 and lost the first person in my life. It has only been recently that I even began to let myself to be truly close to anyone and have a deep bond. Prior to ever letting anyone get close, Pain itself was my only companion. It has been only now that I let my emotions and feelings surface and show my trueself to anyone. But to say that I never cared is an understatement. As much as or as little as I may really know, I do care and would always help. Pain is a constant emotion in life, preventing it is impossible. I can minimize the pain so much but there must be pain. So much I would do for one like you, one who I considered a friend. Don't shut everyone out, there are quite a few who know how to deal and accept pain.

~dX