*sigh*

[elfgrove]

Well... Ashley and I went to Niffers for dinner last night, and...
She started telling me how yet another guy has shown up that's interested in her. Poor thing. It really stresses her. That's why I couldn't tell her about how I felt. The last thing she needs is something else to stress her out. Then she asked me for advice... Heh. I told her that I couldn't advise her, I'm biased on the situation. She looked upset and started asking what it was, what else was going on that she didn't know. So I told her. And I told her why I hadn't said it before. She had the attitude of "is that all." Which was reassuring. But I still worry that I added to her problems.

And as I said... I don't know of anything I can do about it. Jenni tells me he has a right to know how I feel. But y'know, at this point, really... Telling him would just be selfish. I'm pretty sure he doesn't feel anything for me, and besides, he's basically with someone else. Telling him would only put a discomfort on him, and I don't want that. I hate that I put myself in a position that I had to tell her. I don't want either of them to be uncomfortable around me. Ashley and I have become such good friends lately, I don't want to hurt that, the same with him.

I feel like I broke my word to Ashley, having these feelings. But I can't destroy my emotions, I've tried it before... It doesn't work out. You still feel, but your outward actions make those you care for hate you. *shakes head* I can't kill my emotions. But I can go without telling him. I can keep from being selfish... Surely.



And on "A Funny Thing Happened On The Way To The Forum" set-build... We atttached stairs to the buildings in set-build today. And my arms have bruises and scratches on them from moving platforms Tuesday. It's really starting to come together. I also finally bought my ticket for the play. Since I'm required to see it as a part of the theatre class I'm taking. Whee. 7:30pm at the Telfair Peet Theatre(the one on campus) Friday, Febuary 21st. Anyone else going then, or want to?

Heh. We're supposed to do pool tonight... But I haven't heard from Dave, Melissa and Chris only sent maybes, and Matt can't make it. He has the oral part of his final flight test tomorrow morning (the flight part is Wenesday), and has to study. Good Luck!
We'll see what happens tonight.


Seperate Lives - Adelayda

And I don't mind...
Living without you.
And I don't cry...
As much as I used to.

There must be a way...
That we can live...
Our seperate lives...
Together.

Not that I don't care...
Or maybe I'm just wrong.
Living life without you...
I'm not that strong.

There must be a way...
That we can live...
Our seperate lives...
Together.

And it's killing me...
(and it's killing me...)
This pain is killing me...
(this pain is killing me...)
Deep in my heart...
Don't think I can start, start...

But I don't mind...
Living without you.
But I'm starting to cry, cry, cry...
Way more than I used to.

There must be a way...
That we can live...
Our seperate lives...
Together.

There must be a way...
That we can live...
Our seperate lives...
Together.

Comments

[dracumancer.livejournal.com]

i don't think it's ever selfish to be honest with your feelings. it creates more of a difficult situation for the other person, because they don't ever realize how their actions are affecting you. maybe it's selfish to act on your emotions, but it can also be selfish to keep them secret. It seems to me that you're just protecting yourself. I still hold that all deception is based on fear or manipulation, and as it seems you aren't trying to manipulate anyone...

I think that this is a situation in which you don't have to let your fear dictate your actions. and if you're honest with your emotions all the time, you'll feel much more connected to the peopler around you.

just my two cents.

[elfgrove.livejournal.com]

Ah... But...
Yes. I am afraid.
I know that.
But the guy, and the girl, are both my friends. And I feel as though I shouldn't interfere with that.

Re:

[dracumancer.livejournal.com]

but it's not like you did anything against them intentionally. And I think they would want you to be honest, if they really are your friends.

[elfgrove.livejournal.com]

*sigh*
Dammit...
Well. I may have something in the works now....

Hey...

[micarei.livejournal.com]

As I said, DON'T WORRY ABOUT IT! I am NOT mad nor will I EVER be! :) I'm just glad that you were honest with me (though it took you a while to say something *pout*). Don't EVER keep something like that inside, k? I still want to know. What kind of friend would I be if I got mad at something like that?!? A guy is one thing, but friendship is a whole lot more, so don't sweat it, k? :) I want you to talk to me if anything like this is bothering you. Just let me know, k.

Oh, and I had a great time a pool tonight...just what I needed! :)

**Glitter**

Re: Hey...

[elfgrove.livejournal.com]

Thank you Glit-chan.
*hugs*

stage production

[jokeyxero.livejournal.com]

funny thing... hellcat is doing costume design for 'Forum

Re: stage production

[elfgrove.livejournal.com]

*laughs*
As is Melissa-chan. ^_^