"We're alone because no one understands us. "

[elfgrove]

This is a quote I made in a rambling during SATs my senior year of high school. I was looking back at it today, and the quote caught my eye.

I'm still as alone as I always have been. Well, maybe a little less so. But, according to that comment I shouldn't be so alone. Thinking back on what I wrote that comment in context to, I should no longer feel alone. I've found people who have somewhat of an understanding. Not completely. No one can ever completely understand anyone else's heart. But, i've found people who have a vague understanding. One moreso than any other.

But i'm still alone.

I couldn't help but think. At the time I thought it was a briliant statement. I knew it wasn't quite that simple, nothing ever is. But I thought it was mostly right. Here I am though. Over a year later, and a lot has changed.

But that loneliness still consumes me.

So what does that mean? Obviously, the statement isn't nearly as complete as I once believed it to be.

But what causes the loneliness?

The one i'm closest to is too busy to talk now. I understand that of course. That isn't the cause of the loneliness. It is deeper than that. It is something that continually keeps me at the edge. The edge of an abyss within myself that I won't discuss just now.

Perhaps the loneliness is a result of me pushing people away constantly. Smiling and laughing when i'm angry or hurt most. Demanding to be alone when all I really want is someone to sit next to me in silence. Forcing speech rather than accepting the silence when it would help.

I have no answers, but perhaps, the loneliness is caused by my own self -- my pride.

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[lias.livejournal.com]

"We're alone because no one understands us."
"We hate because wo don't understand.."

I don't believe that Love must exist between a man and a woman. I don't believe that it must exist between only two people. I Love those who are my true friends as much as I Love my fiance. People associate with others and call them friends, but do they understand each other? Do they cure the Lonleness? It is a sad thing to see someone who has never had a companion in their life. Who has never had someone that will show themselves, and allow to be shown, and accept all that there is.
To cure the lonleness is to find persons from whom you fear nothing, and who return the same to you. When you act and no longer think about acting, when you cease to paint a picture of yourself for others, when you accept all that comes from them as truth, and offer nothing but the same in return.. in words, expressions, movement, and attitude...
Then you are not alone. The people capable of this are few, and true luck exists for those that find more than a scant few.
There are too many who have never known companionship, and who never will.
I have but six friends. I have numerous acquaintances that would call me friend, but they have earned no such praise from me.
Five of those six live hundreds of miles away, and it saddens me. But I will find them again. Because we are friends.

This is quite an old thread. Again, I apologise if I step where uninvited.