Gah!!!!!!!
Oct. 8th, 2002 11:51 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
elfgroveI don't know whether to be hurt or insulted, or both.
I know I play a violent person at club. I know it.
I know I pretend to have a quick temper.
I also know that I rarely feel any of it.
As I said, I PLAY a violent person.
I pretend.
I make joking threats, just as half the club members do,
And occasionally I get up and lightly thump someone's head.
I genuinely mean lightly, it doesn't hurt, hell I occasionally get the hey, I didn't feel that, try again.
Occasionally I'll throw a feinted punch or kick when people go overly far with the jokes.
I don't expect the people who've only been there a few weeks to understand it's all an act just because everyone else does.
I don't.
And when they start making fun of elves, the specific biases that really annoy me (happy, bouncy, singing, planting flowers, tralala), I know they don't know better, and I don't get truly angry.
But it is a point of principle.
The club members know that is one of my sore spots.
It's part of the play.
I have to get up and feint a punch.
It's not the first time these guys have had me feint a punch at them.
I always pull my punches and kicks. Half the time, I won't ever actually touch you.
But as I said.
I don't expect them to realize when I come at them it's a joke, not the first few times.
I do expect someone who's been bragging about how they're so great at fighting for half the night to notice that when they block with all thier might, the hit they blocked had no power behind it.
I expect the light kick at someone to stop at blocking instead of going into a full out tumble where I'm doing everything I can to not genuinely hurt them.
I expect them to not drag a second martial artist into it and almost get all three of us hurt because he's really twisting and kicking and trying to hurt us, and we're trying not to break his neck or smash a kidney on instinct. Meanwhile, he's trying to make my leg bnd the wrong way while I'm trying to disengage the situation.
If it goes that far...
That's fine.
It happens sometimes.
I do expect these people who've bragged about knowing how to fight to realize they were the only ones genuinely trying to fight.
I expect them to realize that the blow was pulled back to nothing and if any harm was done, it was to me because I wasn't serious and they were.
I expect them to not try to coddle me with, "Oh? Did I hurt you just by blocking?"
I expect them not to make fun of my ability to fight because I was feinting and they weren't.
I expect them to realize that they were the only one fighting when it's over.
Not to make fun of and baby me.
That truly angered me.
Gene is lucky I didn't seriously damage him when he tried to start a tumble with me.
And even luckier that when Beau got caught in it that Beau stopped himself from taking out the boy's kidneys.
Drew. Gods damn it. Never pretend you know shit about fighting in front of me ever again.
You overblocked. And yes, my wrist did sting for a moment as a result. But don't baby me then tell me I'm so weak and I shouldn't have tried that.
Gene, don't laugh that you knocked me down and you didn't get hurt.
Screw both of you right now.
I'm insulted that you made fun of me.
I'm insulted that you thought I really tried to hurt you.
I'm angry for the same reasons.
Yeah. You didn't know at first.
But how dare you brag about taking a punch designed to be easily blocked, and if not blocked, to have no force to start with.
How dare you.
It's very much against my personal code to hurt people without good reason.
Just a note for the future.
I wouldn't hurt you or anyone else over something that stupid.
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I may seem like an asshole here.
Maybe I am one.
But there's a certain air that rules at club.
And one major part is that despite all the threats and whaps and jokes, no one is ever genuinely trying to hurt.
I know I play a violent person at club. I know it.
I know I pretend to have a quick temper.
I also know that I rarely feel any of it.
As I said, I PLAY a violent person.
I pretend.
I make joking threats, just as half the club members do,
And occasionally I get up and lightly thump someone's head.
I genuinely mean lightly, it doesn't hurt, hell I occasionally get the hey, I didn't feel that, try again.
Occasionally I'll throw a feinted punch or kick when people go overly far with the jokes.
I don't expect the people who've only been there a few weeks to understand it's all an act just because everyone else does.
I don't.
And when they start making fun of elves, the specific biases that really annoy me (happy, bouncy, singing, planting flowers, tralala), I know they don't know better, and I don't get truly angry.
But it is a point of principle.
The club members know that is one of my sore spots.
It's part of the play.
I have to get up and feint a punch.
It's not the first time these guys have had me feint a punch at them.
I always pull my punches and kicks. Half the time, I won't ever actually touch you.
But as I said.
I don't expect them to realize when I come at them it's a joke, not the first few times.
I do expect someone who's been bragging about how they're so great at fighting for half the night to notice that when they block with all thier might, the hit they blocked had no power behind it.
I expect the light kick at someone to stop at blocking instead of going into a full out tumble where I'm doing everything I can to not genuinely hurt them.
I expect them to not drag a second martial artist into it and almost get all three of us hurt because he's really twisting and kicking and trying to hurt us, and we're trying not to break his neck or smash a kidney on instinct. Meanwhile, he's trying to make my leg bnd the wrong way while I'm trying to disengage the situation.
If it goes that far...
That's fine.
It happens sometimes.
I do expect these people who've bragged about knowing how to fight to realize they were the only ones genuinely trying to fight.
I expect them to realize that the blow was pulled back to nothing and if any harm was done, it was to me because I wasn't serious and they were.
I expect them to not try to coddle me with, "Oh? Did I hurt you just by blocking?"
I expect them not to make fun of my ability to fight because I was feinting and they weren't.
I expect them to realize that they were the only one fighting when it's over.
Not to make fun of and baby me.
That truly angered me.
Gene is lucky I didn't seriously damage him when he tried to start a tumble with me.
And even luckier that when Beau got caught in it that Beau stopped himself from taking out the boy's kidneys.
Drew. Gods damn it. Never pretend you know shit about fighting in front of me ever again.
You overblocked. And yes, my wrist did sting for a moment as a result. But don't baby me then tell me I'm so weak and I shouldn't have tried that.
Gene, don't laugh that you knocked me down and you didn't get hurt.
Screw both of you right now.
I'm insulted that you made fun of me.
I'm insulted that you thought I really tried to hurt you.
I'm angry for the same reasons.
Yeah. You didn't know at first.
But how dare you brag about taking a punch designed to be easily blocked, and if not blocked, to have no force to start with.
How dare you.
It's very much against my personal code to hurt people without good reason.
Just a note for the future.
I wouldn't hurt you or anyone else over something that stupid.
--------------------------------
I may seem like an asshole here.
Maybe I am one.
But there's a certain air that rules at club.
And one major part is that despite all the threats and whaps and jokes, no one is ever genuinely trying to hurt.
