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What is the point when you're no longer innocent? When are you no longer that sweet child that looked at the person next to you on the street and couldn't even dream that they might not be nice... Or maybe I'm just asking when you stopped being a child. What was the turning point in your life when you honestly no longer saw yourself as a child? I'm not talking about typical teenage anger yelling, "I'm not a kid anymore!" ... Or maybe I am... I don't really know.

I suppose innocence is most often considered to be lost with virginity, but I think people stop being innocent of the world long before that now. Is it the first time you see violence? The first time you see a dead person? That moment you comprehend mortality? The first time you live away from your parents? The time when the all important question of "why?" has an inappropriate time to be asked? When you know to keep your mouth shut about something? When your parents stop being perfect? When your dad is no longer invincible? When kisses stop making things "all better"? When Scooby Doo talking stops making perfect sense (without believing that the writer intended it to appear that the entire group on the show was on drugs)?
The movie "The Crow" suggested that you're an adult the moment you know you're going to die.
John J. Plomp said "You know that children are growing up when they start asking questions that have answers."

Honestly I don't know, I really just want opinions I think. A day or two ago, my parents were complaining about "the kids'" behavior on our trip to Gatlinburg. (My little brother and his friend were monsters.) And I looked at them and said something to the effect of how I loved being automatically grouped in as part of the problem when Chi misbehaved. My parents then told me they didn't consider me as falling in the kids grouping anymore. I never thought I hear them say that.
That's why I've been thinking about it. I realized I've been saying phrases like, "when I was little" or "when I was a kid" for years now. It's strange. I can't help but think when did that turning point come? How did I miss it? Heh. Things change under our noses and we never think about it until it's gone. I think my turning point came around six years ago now. Things stopped being simple, my actions suddenly had a lot of consequences, and that thin line between life and death was very very much a real thing... I don't know.

hmmm

Date: 2001-07-24 10:47 pm (UTC)
From: (Anonymous)
Going by that definition, I lost my innocence at at 6 1/2.

I always equated loss of innocence with safety though. And my feeling of loss of safety was a gradual process.


-Iniach

Re: hmmm

Date: 2001-07-25 08:06 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] eldanildiel.livejournal.com
Well, even by the loss of safety definition, it was still at age eight. That's when I felt like nothing was certain, and I knew that, ultimately, control of your own life is an illusion. I didn't feel safe in my own home anymore, because it wasn't really my home (I'm a preacher's kid), and I wasn't safe in my school, because I was constantly teased about my size, clothes, age, weight, etc. Church wasn't even safe, because the kids didn't like me, didn't trust me, didn't know me, and didn't want to know me. So, even by your definition, that's when I lost it.

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